bad idea

In the office, but not at work.
Nothing else to do, work is finished earlier than usual.
Visited all my favorite websites.
Corrected typos in some of my blog entries.
Checked my emails once, twice, three times (a lady).
Read some of my old emails, and my heart sank.

Those were the days.
It was fun, it was funny, it was so exciting.
Well, it's over now.
Can it be salvaged?
I have no idea.
How did it turn out to be a bad idea?
I still don't think it is.
I have the persistence, but to no avail.
I have the will, but against or for what?
I have daydreams, but who cares?
I honestly wish I had a magic wand to make it all good again.
And make the bad things disappear.

I have zero new messages in my inbox.