cold turkey

Cold turkey, cold turkey, cold turkey.
Take a deep breath, count to 10 and let it go.
I can still have wine with Craig out in the front yard.
I can still have tea with the girls during lunchbreak.
I can still go out on coffee dates.
Cold turkey, cold turkey, cold turkey.
I'm aaaaching for it.
But won't even dare mention it here.
I want it to be for real this time.