a dose of jel

i think i need to a dose of jel right now.
i remember when we would drink the night away
with orgmates or officemates,
then she would get happily tipsy,
and me, devastated and unbeliveably drunk,
and she would hail a cab for us,
while i uttered rubbish.
in the cab,
she would find a way for me to vomit comfortably,
until we reached my house, or her apartment
or a coffee shop where i could calm down
and have a few more cigarettes.
and she would still be her ever-so-perky self.

now i'm sober, more sober than anyone else in the world,
and i hate it.
i need a dose of jel.