noise: friend or foe?

i do not want to stop speaking because i fear that silence will force me to listen to the voice inside my head. around the voice are facts to support the truth in my fears. around the facts is my stubbornness. around my stubbornness is my fear of being alone, of not making it on my own. in the end i know i will be forced to be on my own anyway, so why not force myself to heed the voice inside me? ok i've said enough. i think it's time to stop speaking.