clueless and happy

"I think that the film Clueless was very deep. I think it was deep in the way that it was very light. I think lightness has to come from a very deep place if it's true lightness." - Alicia Silverstone, Actress
I live my life as lightly as possible. Why? I come from an emotionally turbulent past, a decade ago caused by family problems, and recently, a relationship that left me disillusioned. So now that things are falling into place and I don't know what will happen next, I try to take life one day at a time, and it works.
I think no lightness is unfounded or senseless. So yes, Alicia was right. Lightness has to come from a deep place, and in my case it's the trauma of my bad bad past.

Everybody is somebody else's weirdo.
I find you weird, you find me weird. As long as we get along fine, we're good. There's nothing wrong with a little weirdness. Mine is different from yours, and I would love to explore it.

If it's stupid but works, it isn't stupid.
Hey maybe some of my ideas aren't stupid!

You know that look women get when they want sex? Me neither! - Drew Barrymore
True, we don't ever look sex-starved! Maybe that's the reason why men initiate sex. We both want it, and somebody has to make the first move!

It's not that I'm afraid to die, I just don't want to be there when it happens. -Woody Allen
Exactly my sentiment. When someone asks me if i fear death, I say no. But I don't want to experience the pain of it. I don't want to see my family weeping over me while I turn into a corpse. I don' t want to see my blood and feel the throbbing pain of while slowly losing my memory of the human world. But I don't mind going away from the world, if only for the better life ahead of me.

Sometimes you have to get to know someone really well to realize you're really strangers. -Mary Richards
True. When I venture into a friendship or a romantic relationship, I do not realize how much I don't know about the other person until we stop bantering or merely conversing. That's the time we observe each other --- how we react to situations, how we feel about certain things, how we live life in general. That's why I love meeting strangers. Maybe subconsciously, I know that even my closest friends and my significant other are ultimately strangers to me and vice versa.

When I read about the evils of drinking, I gave up reading. -Henry Youngman
Fun is the key word here. I do anything that makes me happy. And I avoid anything that leaves me distressed and worried.

THE OFFICE

whre i work......


......i can jump on the table and see a spectacular view out the window.


......i can visit other offices with my friends and take our pictures.


......i stay up late to finish something that my boss probably won't need the next day, but it's all good.

penny for my tots

this is tots. he's my boyfriend. he's very easy to talk to. we almost never argue, because whenever we sense that our insights will clash, we instinctively turn our conversation into a playful banter. so yeah, i can say that he's somewhat an escapist. makes our relationship fun. we laugh a lot and we try to talk to each other on the phone before going to sleep.

eventhough he lives outside Metro Manila, we don't have problems seeing each other. i think we're a great pair because we both like fun and spontaneity. we don't ever want to fight because we try to avoid drama --- i'm clueless when it comes to confrontations and he simply thinks relationship drama sucks. i don't know if that's a good thing or not. but i'm happy with the way things are and i hope he is.

sometimes i think that this relationship lacks depth. but are we really looking for that? my idea of a perfect relationship is three things: love, honesty and fun. plus two other things to back them up: time and effort. so far those elements are present in our relationship. oks na oks!

we're both having fun. for me, that's the whole point of entering a relationship. we don't have a lot in common but miraculously this thing that we have actually works. because we are able to make fun of our differences:
>he teases me about my makeup and i tease him about his being skinny.
>i go around the city riding buses and jeepneys; he gets really tired of life riding the MRT.
>his passion is cars and i know comedy like the back of my hand.
>he likes house music and frequents bars; i am the queen of videoke joints and i live for rock.

well, we a few things in common: we both smoke marlboro lights, we both love to make fun of people, and we live for nothing but fun.

cheers tots!